I have never loved so many guys at once

Let me explain my title.

The past week or so I have been a little sad. I have realized that I only have six more teaching weeks left. We are in midterms this week which means it's half way through the second term. I can't believe how fast it has gone. I have truly come to love and become close to my students. I love seeing them, I love going to work. I really enjoy teaching my guys so that's why I say I have never loved so many guys at once. All 350 of my students are special and have unique personalities. I have enjoyed teaching them and having them in my classes.

So it is with a sad heart that I will be leaving in a few months. I will always look back on this time as one of the best jobs I have ever had. It has been an amazing experience that I will always cherish.

I am excited to come back to the states, but I am a little nervous about coming back. I know it will be hard to adjust back and it will be so different from when I left. It will be weird but I am excited and am happy to go back in just a few months.

Quote my life

“Eventually all the right pieces fall into place, until then laugh at all the confusion, live for the moment, and know that everything happens for a reason.”

I love quotes I have a bunch of them posted in my office at work. This on is one of my favorites. I think it’s so true in life. I believe that eventually everything will work out and the way it is supposed to. But in all the confusion of life we should only laugh at it. There is no reason to get upset at the things we can not change. The only way to change a bad situation is to have a positive attitude and laugh it all. We should live for every moment because we never know when it will be our last. When it comes down to it I want people to know that I lived my life to the fullest. We only get one chance at this thing called life. It’s confusing and sometimes crazy but that’s the stuff that makes us appreciate the good times more. EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON. Weather it’s to teach us, to grow us, or to develop us. Know that there is a purpose for everything that happens to you. Even in the painful situations, which we have all had in our
lives, there is a reason. Everything great and small builds your character; it develops you into the person you are meant to be.

So I’ll leave you with one more of my favorite quotes that we should also live by. Live well, Laugh often, Love much. God bless.

Oh the curves of life's journey

I was talking with a friend this weekend who likes to call me honey... lol about my past relationship. I got a little sad when talking to him about it because I realized that no matter how over something you can be the past can always still hurt. We were talking about proposals and a little about my first one when I realized that that fact made me sad. My whole life I have only wanted there to be one. I have only wanted to plan one wedding. To truly love one guy. To think about spending the rest of my life with one person.

I was reminded that I will one day have to tell my future husband that there was one guy that I planned all that with that before him. I hate that because I feel as though it's taking something away from my future husband. I know that the past is the past and there's nothing I can do about it. I am beyond glad that I didn't get married that I didn't end up living a life that would have been miserable. but it breaks my heart that one day I'm going to have to tell my future spouse that there was someone before him. It might sound crazy but it really does break my heart. I want my future to be special and I want all the firsts back. I hate telling people or talking about the past. Not really because I feel embarrassed that I have already been engaged, but I just feel as though it won't be as special because I have already been through the proposal, the engagement, the wedding planning, and other things.

I know this blog might be a little silly but it was on my mind after talking to my friend about it.

Turn obstacles into opportunities

There are so many obstacles in our lives and when they come what do we do? I know that most of the time when I have an obstacle in my life I usually don't know what to do. I get angry, I get sad, I am confused, and lost. I've never really put much thought into changing my obstacles into an opportunities. How much better would things go for me if I would stop thinking obstacles were bad.

The fact is that we all have obstacles in our lives, we always will. The thing that makes us different is how we chose to deal with those obstacles. If we keep thinking of them as obstacles then that's all they will be. But what if we turn it around, what if we begin to look at obstacles in life as opportunities? How much better would it be for us? What kind of great things could come from those obstacles?

Many times I feel as though I have had or do have obstacles in my way. I have never stop to realize that they are more than that. They have become or will become a great opportunity. I want to change my focus from thinking about things in life as obstacles and think of everything as an opportunity.

I've got to keep singing I've got to keep praising his name

I have recently realized that God has been telling me that I need a change in my attitude. I can have a really bad attitude about things especially here in Korea. It effects a lot of areas in my life and effects me. I know God has been talking to me about it for a while but am just now starting to listen to him. I talked with a good friend this weekend about it and asked for thoughts and prayers.

I fully realize that most of my attitude problem is because I am not close to God, which I am working on. I am close to myself and therefore think of myself and no one else. So I have turned my focus back to where it is supposed to be. I want to focus on God in every situation and chose to be like him instead of like me. God is helping me with my attitude which can be difficult because it's easier to just get an attitude instead of stepping back, taking a breath, and doing the right thing.

Things can get pretty bad for me here in Korea and I can really lose sight of what's right. When things get bad here I have to remember that God is in control and I am not. When I am in control things go bad... like now. I have to keep singing God's praise constantly and ask him to come over me.I trust that through the rain God will guide me back to the sun light. When I don't know what to do I've got to keep singing praise to his name.

keeps getting better

I know that I need to become a better person in all areas of my life. I know that God has big plans in store for my life. He has been preparing me for so much. I feel as though God has been helping me grow and develop during this time in Korea. I have recently been revisiting a past dream that I felt God had for my life. It amazes me that God can plant a desire in a persons heart and gives so much nurturing and time for it to grow and develop into his beautiful plan. He shows you how much he has in store for you. He amazes me so much when I chose to follow him.

The Bond

When your in a foreign country it seems as though you form a bond with other foreigns. You quickly become close because you have things in common. As I start to see people leaving that I care about and have spent a lot of time with I'm starting to reflect on my time here in Korea.

Spending time with foreigners has become something that I really look forward to, seeing people who are similar to... me. The people whom I can talk to at a normal pace. People who understand me and know what I'm going through especially when I feel all alone. It would have been really hard for me to have stayed here in Korea for two years if it had not been for some of the great people I met while here. It makes me incredibly sad to see that the connections and the adventures are coming to an end, as people are leaving and going back to their home country. I hope that all the relationships I have built over the past two years will always remain.

As people begin to leave it makes me realize that in about five months I'll be the one leaving. It will be hard to leave Korea because of all the memories, experiences, and people I've met here. It makes me excited to go home in a few months to a more "normal" life. So as sad as I'll be I know that I'll always have the memories and hopes of one day seeing all of my wonderful Korean friends again. I will always look back on my time in Korea as a great experience. That even through the bad times I still had many great experiences and relationships with the people I met in South Korea, a bond.